Joy proceeding heartbreak

This last week was filled with so many wonderful events. Christmas, visiting with family, Keelin’s first birthday and birthday party, and more. So much joy I almost felt guilty for being blessed with it all. The ‘most wonderful time of the year’ definitely lived up to the name. That was until Saturday morning.

Mary Ann and KeelinSitting downstairs with Keelin and my mom, enjoying the last days of our Gammie and Granddaddy visit, my phone rings and it’s Z calling me from upstairs. My first thought is that I’m going to pick up the phone and hear him ask me to bring him coffee in bed… Or something equally silly. But when I hear the pain in his voice I know something is wrong and take off up the steps to see what’s wrong. Sitting next to him on our bed I learn that our dear friend, and Keelin’s godmother, Mary Ann, had passed away about 30 minutes before. She had been undergoing chemo for some time, battling her 2nd bout of cancer, and had been in the hospital for about 2 days. It was somewhat comforting to know that her last moments were peaceful and she is now completely free of pain but that didn’t change the heartbreak of knowing she’s gone. The heartbreak of knowing that Keelin will never know the woman who had such a deep impact on her father and my lives. The heartbreak of knowing the last time we saw her was in September which seems so very far away. The heartbreak.

2012 has been a tough year in terms of deaths, both on a national and personal level. Mary Ann makes 4 friends we have lost in the last 12 months and while the rest of the year has been such a blessing filled with fun and adventure {especially bring our first year as parents}, the loss cannot and will not be overlooked.

I don’t mean for this post to be a total downer, just a reminder to enjoy every moment and do your best not to take what you have and the people you know for granted. We are humans – imperfect people – so we’re going to make mistakes. We’re going to forget to tell people how much we love them. We’re going to get comfortable in our daily routine and stop reaching out for new opportunities. But what better time than the start of a new year to decide to ‘do our best’ for our friends, family, and ourselves.

Wishing you all LOVE and EXCITEMENT on this New Year’s Eve. Farewell 2012, bring it on 2013!

Until next time…

4 thoughts on “Joy proceeding heartbreak

  1. Im so sorry to hear about Mary Ann’s passing Sara. She was very kind and a joy to talk to the few times I met her at your place for different get togethers. All my love goes out to you, Keelin, and Zech. Giant hugs and warm thoughts.

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